Life and Lyrics

Today the weather forecast was right.  It’s cold, gray, and rainy.  Webster’s would probably use it as an example for the words bleak and/or dreary.  It’s killed my plans to distract myself and move on.  I was going to mow away my anger, pain, and frustration.  Can’t mow when it’s this wet.  So instead I looked for something else but nothing inspired any motivation.  I spent the morning in bed except only to tend to the hounds and start a fire to take the chill from the house.

As the KU Football game rolled on, morning gave way to afternoon.  I decided to let my fingers do the walking.  Catching up with some friends would surely lighten my spirits.  Scroll down the list, click send.  Voice mail.  Scroll down the list, click send.  Answering machine.  Scroll down the list, click send.  After the twelfth time I just laid the phone down and wiped away the tears.  I wasn’t hungry but forced myself to eat some lunch.  That would distract me till someone called back.

I have waited.  Another log has been added to the fire.  I’ve cleaned up the kitchen.  The phone lays silent.  Do you ever have times when you think a song, it’s lyrics are speaking to you?  A moment when the lyrics seem to have been plucked from your own thoughts, your emotions, your life?  This song plays in my mind and resonates in my heart.

Save Me by Jordin Sparks

I’m all alone tonight,
No stars are shining on me
I’m thinkin’ I’d be alright
If somebody would just call me, yeah

I know that I’m not crazy,
Everybody must get this way, sometimes
So look around,
For the people in your life that say

Save Me
I need somebody’s help here
Thought it would be alright but
I’m not pullin’ through on my own
Is anyone around who can Save Me
I’m fallin’ down it’s crazy
If this is the pain God gave me,
I’m cool with that,
But wont somebody Save Me

I guess you missed the signs,
But honey I can never blame you
I don’t want ya feelin’ guilty,
that’d keep you in pain too (oooooh)

Now I can’t hear you when I’m far away, away
So maybe you could learn from this,
And help somebody else someday

Cause I’m human after all
And I could not catch my fall
And nobody ever came around my way
to check up on me and see if I was doin’ alright
Nobody came to Save Me

Save Me
I need somebody’s help here
Thought it would be alright but
I’m not pullin’ through on my own
Is anyone around who can Save Me
I’m fallin’ down it’s crazy
If this is the pain God gave me,
I’m cool with that,
But wont somebody Save Me

Save Me from my demons
Save Me from myself
Save Me, somebody Save Me
I need someones help

(ooooooooooooh)

Save Me
I need somebody’s help here
Thought it would be alright but
I’m not pullin’ through on my own
Is anyone around who can Save Me
I’m fallin’ down it’s crazy
If this is the pain God gave me,
I’m cool with that,
But wont somebody Save Me (wont somebody save me)

Save Me
I need somebody’s help here
Thought it would be alright but
I’m not pullin’ through on my own
Is anyone around who can Save Me
I’m fallin’ down it’s crazy
If this is the pain God gave me,
I’m cool with that,
But wont somebody Save Me

(ooooooh)